The Dancing Juggler Howling At The Moon

I've been listening to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros for about a year now. They are awesome. And totally up my street with their hippie vibes and indie folk music. They are a music collective from California (one of the few states in the U.S. I'd consider visiting) with Edward Sharpe as the lead singer. I watched a video of them performing live for a Canadian radio station and I concocted this idea in my head that they might be a cult. Edward Sharpe does have the look of Jesus about him. So I wondered if he cracked the whip to make all these really talented musicians write songs that he could take the credit for. According to Google I'm not alone in thinking this but I have since decided that if other people think they are a cult they are probably not.

Cult or not, they make fantastic music. A couple of days ago I made myself listen to some new songs. I hadn't listened to music for weeks and it's such a healer. So I found this song called "LIfe Is Hard" by Edward Sharpe's cult. It sent shivers down my spine and it kinda reminded me that life was never meant to be easy. At least, maybe, for certain types of people. Being aware of the intense beauty and magic in the world means being more susceptible to the pain we can experience.

I can see now how my course is helping me. The other day I could hear my inner critic (probably the ram) telling me I was completely useless and no good. I let it go on for a while and then I remembered I had a wolf inside me that could help. So I told the ram to f___ off and the wolf and I howled at the moon. It made me smile and I stopped thinking I was a bad person. Because things are shitty enough for me at the minute without letting my inner critic going off on one.

I did a bit of soul cleansing as well which involved removing items out of my flat that have no purpose here. There's always stuff left over. And it doesn't mean anything. It just sits there gathering dust and taking up space in a world that's already much too cluttered. I'm definitely feeling a bit calmer and more hopeful. So, Yay! And also, I don't care if Edward Sharpe is a cult leader, I want to join them and be a dancing juggler.